Summoning

Bringing together, gathering it all in the center, wanting to run? Where would you go?

There’s creatures, there’s voices, there’s those that say “there’s no where to turn, there’s no where to escape to” there’s the desire to hide underneath the covers and hide myself away from the world. How can I keep my heart open as people’s anger rises, as their cruelty shows through bared tears and vicious teeth. Wounded words and bodies that have not been able to settle for years. Working, moving, creating, from this space to the next to the next, filling spaces with words and ideas and all the feels that rise and fill and overflow. There’s my breath, there’s my present heart, there’s only this moment, there’s the stories of the body that held the past so tightly so one day it could and would be processed, understood, heard. There’s the sinking back into the space, there’s the opening up and sharing myself with the world, and there’s sovereignty, for no one really knows what it’s all like inside, no one really knows what it’s like other than us, other than the ones who feel it, who experience it.

How hard it feels to fill out the space of the body, to not yearn for another to fill yet simply for another to hold. There’s the stories of others, the dark walls and passageways to hide behind. There’s the breath and there’s presence. There’s everything I wish to share and there’s everything that I hold back from. There’s waves, there’s emotions, there’s those that always come back when the time is right. There’s uncertainty and then there’s rest, there’s a foundation of honesty and there’s trust. You feel it inside of you, you know it within your bones, when you really breathe deeply letting the body become heavy, heavy and soft and light as a feather the spirit rises. There’s mind holds tightly to stories that have come before because to really settle in means to accept the truths that I have always known. Known since that time I was small, the truths of a world bound to transform, where everything disappears and collapses away from the ways things once were. The way things are. My nervous system seems to bring it all to the forefront as to be grounded, balanced, relaxed and ready whenever the time to move comes my way, yet now it comes forth with love, it comes forth with support. It comes forth with others who have also heard the bone deep calls of intuition. Of getting things together. Gathering supplies, food to last, ready enough for any experience. Ready to trade, ready to inherit, ready to survive. Ready to keep alive and protect and get through until all the dust settles and we can being to rebuild from new ways, from the heart, from smaller communities, from councils and localized all voices heard kinda systems. The ideas of it all feel daunting, how could I possibly get through this? How could I possibly survive? Growing up in the suburbs with all things provided, how could I really get by?

So to this I hear, we learn, I learn, I plant and I grow and I garden. I put my hands in the dirt, I move my body in the ways that feel like remembering, I ease into the moment of each passing breath, I ground my whole system and I trust that everything that I need will be brought forth to me, it will reveal itself on my path, and I will have all it is that I need. When I stay aligned, when I stay clear and awake and breathing, present and grounded into my heart, the heart of the great mother, Gaia. All will be provided. I do not need to know it all now, I simply cannot. All that I can do is take one step to the next to the next with complete and utter presence.

Hear the callings of the animals, learn their ways. Black bears and groundhogs. How coyotes work with badgers to get their prey, they then share the stores. Keep breathing, deeply, fill your belly full. Inhale and exhale. Let thoughts emotions and ideas rise, let them fall. Let your body be held by the earth, by the chair, let the whole tempo slow down. Let the mind settle, let the body do the listening, reminding you that you are safe. Your relaxed system relaxes the systems of all those around you. Your aura of peace has an impact on everything around. The earth, every person, the physical environment around you. When we are settled, we make decisions that are lasting, we make choices that serve us in the long term, we move with greater awareness and intention.

Tasting food fully means to eat with love, it reminds your body that you are safe to feel. For feeling is how your intuition moves through you, and to taste means to remember that we are here to live and not just survive. To breathe fully means to settle your whole system entirely. To heal the whole space and each place you encounter. To breathe fully and not to turn away, to open up the portals of remembering within your body. The passageways of magic and light that your soul knows, this is healing, this is coming back home, back to the body. Back to your magic. Back to your soul.