I will hold your hand so we remember where to go

We keep on dancing under the sun. I saw old photos form the days before, imagined what if you saw them and saw how I once was. What would you say to see these old versions of me. The more we write, the closer we align, coming closer and closer, I want it all with you. I want it all with you. Let’s align our timelines and see what our souls are ready to create.

The voice an echo, ever calling me home.

I know this once unexplored, you’ve been alive in darkened places, teach me what grace is.

The magic of you and your hearts many faces, teaching me my own damn self. Bring your intensity, bring all of yourself to me, I have the space. Bring your beauty, bring you love, bring all of yourself to me you are already enough. You are already enough.

At once I wished to change you, and your ways, I wished to change me, mold me and fit me into a box that would pleasure all others inauthentic to me, I wanted to morph into a shape inauthentic. I wanted to be the thing they could all digest easily. A deep disrespect to me, to my truth. For who I am, all of me, who you are, who I see in you, is love. Maybe the wings hold knives and blades, maybe on other days in other moments they are wings of a feather, we stick together.

How would one break through this last and final wall, the one that brings all of yourself to me, shown to me here in the now, release the fear and the nervousness. We wish for all these things, all of you, every piece I want you to bring all of yourself to me. Bring your intensity, and bring your love, I will dissolve like honey upon the tongue, surrender into the divine embrace and melt away. All is left to slip back into the dust.

Bring your beauty as I eat popcorn from the bag, greasy fingers and going back to the fridge for more. Would you love me then? To see all the intimate parts of me? When I put it all on the table, will you hold me, when you’ve always known me?

It’s one thing to say all these things, it’s another to allow it to be seen and known. To pull me up from the floor to dance and sway and sing. I wanted to be near you yet here as we are. Jolly good fellow, I saw the depths of the dark and you held me in my light. I am here to hold you, to guide you, to be with you.

There’s always choice there’s always choice points. That’s the card I read today, and the one of full family celebration and completion. All means all. No use in pretending what’s wrong and what’s right. Sitting in the backseat of the car, waiting as I’m being driven and led by another, tears rolled down the cheeks as I surrendered and let you go. A Scorpio is a fixed sign you know, letting go is something I have since learned, yet when do we know when to hold on and when to stay?

I just surrender my heart up and pray the divine will fill it up. I am the love I have always sought for. To feel you close as we are apart is the greatest gift of it all.

Can we disentangle from others? Be like water my friend. When nothing within us stays rigid. We decide the shape we’re in. Empty your mind. Be shapeless, formless, like water, it can flow or it can crack.

We design the waves we give. From the heart, still a hand that holds you a length away. What could become of our bodies intertwining? Empty your mind.

A friend got a new home recently, full of furniture. Life moves up for those who are committed to love. Compassion is the compass, the golden ticket that provides us all the provisions.

I think I may simply become lost if I fully let go and ran full speed ahead in your direction. I may simply become lost unable to tame myself. The wild horse within, unleashed and unbound. Ready to roam and soar and play and lay. To be in it with you. Can’t keep myself away any more.

At the party, I emphasized the importance of expanding my energy outward as well as up and down. This outward in the direction of the heart has led me here, to think of you. And I pray that who ever reads this finds deep resonance.

Allow the walls to fall, allow the walls to your hearts true desires to fall and dissolve. Just keep going. Keep going strong. We are in this together, I promise. It grows stronger and stronger each day. We don’t know what’s ahead, just keep going strong.

I am here, you are felt, you are held.

I thought I was the one experiencing the wind. Turns out she loves to kiss me back.

Tears are joy returning home.

I tattooed your birthday on someone’s collarbone today, it was for their grandma, but for me, it was for you. No coincidence, only synchronicity. A Scorpio constellation on her mother. A four leaf clover behind the ear.

The signs are always guiding us. There’s no purpose to try and figure it all out.

Supernatural woman, supernatural human, supernatural thing.

I wish I could pour my heart out to you in a way that fills up your cup for you to then drink.

I trust in the heart, the unfolding. The now. Walls break down, no matter the voices or the ideas of those around, what is meant, what is meant will be, we stare at each other through the glass that now shatters and through it I hold your hand. Darkness dissolves and the light, the bright light and angelic golden white essence of you shines and emerges from the cloaks and shadows around. I see you, I see me, I see. I see I see.

I want all of you.